Day 1 (Never change your mind because someone makes you feel like you have to)

"The thing that is taking me the longest to learn is that I can’t please everybody. I just try to make everyone happy and I think that by doing that, it hasn’t allowed me to understand what makes me honestly happy so… is very overwhelmed sometimes and I think that I can take care of people and help them, but I can also take care of myself and that’s taking the most of my body cause I need to learn how to love myself first."

Sometimes it happens in my life that I have to choose between doing something that I wanna do, and do nothing or another thing in order to not upset someone that I care about. Is like when you are really tired and wanna stay home for the afternoon in bed or watching some tv show you like but NO, you can’t because you said to your friend that you will go to hang out with her. You could just call her and say "Hey I don’t really wanna go to your house today, I wanna stay home cause I'm really lazy" but you know you can’t because she would get mad and say things like "You never wanna hang out when I tell you (through is a lie) you already said that you were coming!" and she'll go on and on until you send her to hell before she ends her speech doing that with you or you just give up and hung up to change yourself in something nice and go, even when you don’t really want to.

I mean! I'm tired of that things because god! People never understand when you don't want to do something just because you wanna stay home! They force us to lie and say "Hey I can’t go to your house today, I have to clean up, my dad made me" o "I had forgotten that I had to go to the dentist today" PEOPLE ONLY UNDERSTANDS WHEN YOU CAN’T DO SOMETHING BECAUSE YOU ARE BUSSY! They literally force us to be busy 24/7.

In my life, thanks to god, I had found people that knows when I just wanna stay home and don’t get angry about it, those people are the ones that made me feel more comfortable, like I can be fully myself all the time, these type of friends are the ones who can accept a "no" for an answer. Don't misunderstand me, I love ALL my friends but some of them, get angry about many things that doesn’t really worth the feeling. The problem is when you start to feel the need of please them every single minute to stop them for being angry or avoid the arguing. This is what I call, UNFAIR. You can’t be pleasing everyone all the time, you need to be yourself and be around people that allow you to be it, people who understands when you say yes but also when you say no. Toxic people are everywhere and everyone can be one, your friends, your family, even your neighbors (yes, the ones that shows up just when you are about to go and won’t shut up about their cat's sickness or how the weather is going to kill us all someday) but the important thing is that you always know who you are and when you feel forced to change and stop it.

I know is hard, and is so much better to avoid the fights, but you know what else is so much better? To realize that you are a free beautiful person and that you are allowed to stay in home doing nothing if that’s what you wanna do, ‘cause everyone of us deserves a rest. So give yourself one.


Girl in love with the chocolate cake, out.